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Back in Jersey

~Bismillahir Rahmanir Raheem~


Salaamz whats goin on everyone? i think most of you are actually still on ur planes back lol, i actually just got a little while ago… Hamdulillah… Im sitting right now infront of my computer writing this and i feel so weird… im not in the apartment using dial up.. or im not in an internet cafe with a bunch of five years olds playing games and smoking.. lol.. im in my room… and Musa’s not here telling some crazy story about his brothers or his friends, and hani’s not here making some random yet really deep comment about egypt or the people of egypt or life in general, and ridwan isnt here trying to convice everyone that something is wrong or something is right, amr isnt here playin nasheed in the background and giving us the brotherly advice that we need… my brother is on his way back right now, but hes not gona be on the phone with his fiance as much because he’ll probably be at their house or something lol…

i miss the fact that everything is no longer in walking distance… school(being a 40 minute drive away), masjid(10 minutes away), barber(35 minutes), supermarket(10 minutes)… etc… i miss the fact that i am not gona be able to hear the adhan in the streets as i am walking through them, especially during fajr… gona miss walking the streets right after fajr and smelling that certain sweetness in the air thats hard to describe, im gona miss my Jersey brothers that ended up goin to egypt!! like Erad, and Osama and Yassir… also the people we met their, like Amu Hani, who didnt even know me and my brother before this trip, like he never knew we existed, and he accepted us as like a part of his family, MashAllah, and im gona miss Jamaal, for his advice, his jokes, smacking me a few times lol, and getting whooped and the basketball court ūüėõ im gona miss all the group trips that we went on, and i think Jabla Tur, even though it was painful lol, and i get really sick right after it, was a perfect way to end the trip, and maybe the best of all the trips… O YA AND HOW CAN I FORGET THE MANGO JUICE!! well it was more like mango pulp… but still that was amazing lol, and the Sugarcane juice…

its funny, while in egypt i could only miss home, and now that im home i miss egypt… like the song says, you dont know what you got til its gone… Hamdulillah i cant thank everyone enough for putting this thing together, i know it took a lot of work, and inshAllah i think there is not one person on this trip that didnt walk out a little more spiritual and a little bit of a better Muslim, and inshAllah all the people that put this together will get the reward for that… Ameen.

Inshallah you all return home safely… and we gotta keep in touch man.. dont forget we gota a MAS conference coming up soon that we all gotta go to lol… Inshallah i will see you all soon, and if not, then inshallah i ask Allah that we can all meet each other in Jannah…if i had done anything good to help anyone then it was from Allah, and if i had done anything or said anything that offended anybody then it was from myself, and i ask for your sincere forgiveness…


Your Brother for life,


p.s. you ever need me, im only a phone call away, and anywhere from a 1 and half hour drive for Amr in Connecticut to a six hour flight for Ridwan in Cali, and everywhere in between..


August 6, 2007 at 3:22 pm Leave a comment

Last day in the mother of the world


My last day in egypt leaves me with many mixed emotions: Happiness that i can return to my home and country, sadness that i leave such great people behind, hope that we can start change and raise the banner of Allah, fear that i may return to my old habits, excitement about the beginning of med school and my married life, and so much more… I think we can say as a group, that we have learned things here that we will keep¬†with us for the rest of our lives… And for the rest of the people in SAP, if one day… really early in the morning, as you sleep in your american beds… in nj, or CA, or michigan or ohio… and the streets are silent… but you are awoken by a man on the street… who yells:¬† BATHEEEEEEEEEEEEKHHH!… just know that that guy, is your brother yousaf, reminding you of the amana that you recieved the second you stepped foot of that plane in egypt….
I will always keep you all in my dua…

August 5, 2007 at 9:45 am Leave a comment

leaving the land of Musa (AS)

asalamu alaikum wa rahmatu Allah wa barakatu

It is our final day here in Egypt. As I type our apartment is being cleaned inside – out to be handed over to the owner.

I apologize to the readers for a lack of recent posts. The past week was filled with exams, adventures, emotions, tasks, and reflections. I have seen tears, smiles, frowns, moans, sighs, disagreements, hugs, kisses, and farewells. After we took our final exams we took a trip to Mount Sinai (Jabal Al-toor / Jabal Musa). This trip deserves a blog post by itself, I hope other sapers will share there experience on this trip even after returning home. We climbed up-hill 7 kilometers followed by about 3000 stairs to reach the top of the Mountain were Musa 3alahi Alsalam spoke to Allah on a few occasions. You can just imagine the struggle, trial and eventually triumph involved in the physical climbing of the mountain. I just hope I was sincere in climbing the mountain, otherwise that was a lot of wasted energy! May Allah send peace and blessings on Musa (AS) for his patience and sacrifice. He must have loved and cared for bani Israel ALOT especially because of how frustratingly they responded to him. Maybe bani Israel didn’t appreciate Musa (AS) but I do, May Allah join us with him in Jannah.

We had a graduation ceremony and got certificates with official masri stamps and signatures. May Allah help us benefit ourselves and others from what we learned.

There is so much more to share from experiences and reflections.

Here are some pictures, but they will only transfer so much from the experience. You really had to be there. Don’t worry…its ok….just sign up for next years MY SAP ūüėČ



Reflecting on Jabal Altur

We raised the mountain above them like an umbrella, and they thought it was going to fall on them

Final gathering

globalization… starbucks on jabal Musa!


August 5, 2007 at 6:08 am 3 comments

just some thoughts

 ~Bismillahir Rahmanir Raheem~

i just have a lot on my mind at the moment so here goes….

its hard to look around egypt and not be completely humbled at the opportunities we were given… the way some people live.. they arent waking up and thinkin about what restaurant they are eating at today… or how they hate work.. or they hate school.. theres people here who wake up and wonder how they are gonna survive this day.. how are they gonna get the food they need to live.. and for most people school isnt even an option… they either never had the financial ability or just never had the chance to begin with… so who are we to complain about this kind of stuff? and granted i may just be feeling this way right now, and when i go back to the US i mite feel like this for a lil while and then it will pass.. but for now.. at this moment.. it hurts me to think i could be so spoiled that i could feel like a blessing is not enough… its funny today i was listening to Imam Anwar Awlaki’s Lives of the Prophets.. the story of Musa (A) (u know with the whole Jubla Tur trip coming up and stuff) and he talks about a certain instance that happens where after they crossed the red sea into Sinai they were given by Allah a Rizq of this specific type of food which no one was given before them.. and they went to Prophet Musa and asked him if he could make dua’a to Allah to give them more of a variety… SubhanAllah, after just witnessing the miracles of Allah, after being given this amazing rizq, and after being freed from slavery… The Prophet Muhammed (S) said when we learn about the stories of bani Israel (the¬†descendants of Yaqub, now better known as the jews) that we should relate them to ourselves because our Ummah will fall into a lot of the same mistakes that they fell into… so i couldnt help but relate this story to myself atleast in America.. Given this amazing rizq of being born into a country where i can practice my religion almost completely without hassle, go to what ever school i want to, not have to worry bout starvation or begging to live… and then to complain that i dont want this or that…

another way i started to look at it is that everyone in this life is tested… no one is tested more than anyone else, and the test of this life is not more than we can bare… but the test that we face may be different than another persons… some may deal with poverty, others with family issues.. so on and so forth… so when we are tested its easy to say that no way this is too much for me.. no one knows how i feel… but i swear there are people that feel the same way… just because they arent going through the same exact situation as u are.. doesnt mean they wont understand… and something that we feel like isnt that big a deal, others to themselves may see it as something huge in their life… life is funny like that.. i remember we were at hajj.. and we were with this one brother who, MashAllah was amazing… i mean like we were confused about a certain ayat and what surah it was in, so we asked him, and he knew exactly what ayat, where it was, on what page, what part of the page.. and so on and so forth.. and i remember we were all talking this one time, and he asked the sheikh that was with us this question.. and he was asking how to better oneself.. and then he started to cry.. and he said that he felt like he was such a bad muslim sometimes… and i couldnt help but take a step back.. and just be like wow… this person is someone that literally everytime i went to the masjid i saw him there… and he feels like he is a bad muslim.. how should i feel?

InshAllah we will all be able to pass our lifes test with the help of Allah… lol i kinda lost my train of thought.. in the internet cafe.. mad stuff going on… lol… but hamdulillah this post was getting a little long and probably annoying¬†anyway.. if i remember any of the other stuff, i’ll try and post it..



August 1, 2007 at 6:14 pm 1 comment

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